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I had a great time tonight with my neighbors. There were hundreds of kids going around with all their costumes. It is fun to be a kid and I loved seeing all their happy faces. Click here for the rest of the photos.
I took this photo last month when my computer was going haywire. All these windows popped up in a few seconds. I am going to use the analogy of all these pop ups as all the possibilities in one’s life. After all, in this environment of so much change and uncertainty, we have to keep on looking at new possibilities.
Somehow, I have been challenged by many situations in these past years. I decide to take every punch in life and keep on seeking better ways to create my life, or better yet…better ways to live my life. Our eyes are windows to being able to see beyond the punches. It is not easy when you are confronted with challenges. But isn’t it those very challenges that propel you to move beyond the current reality? (more…)
I haven’t posted a music video I like in a while. I came across this one by Elton John of the Song Healing Hands. I have heard the song before, but never really paid attention to the words. They are pretty powerful and deep. The lyrics are after the video.
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My very first ever video on You Tube was when I had my ankle surgery last year. The doctor that operated on me was moving to New York and on my last visit with him, he was calling me a wimp. He wasn’t saying it with anger, just point blank: ” You are acting like a wimp.”
He was saying that because I was complaining about the intense pain on my ankle. I answered him: “Have you ever had this apparatus attached to your ankle?” And remember, I reminded him, “It was 2 surgeries at the same time!” (To remove most my pins and plates from my surgery 7 years ago besides the treatment for my cartilage.) He agreed. It was different and a double whammy.
I have had the worst two days of my life. They are issues relating to my ex-husband. I don’t think I can share all the details openly, but never in my life did I feel as threatened as I did today. It was pretty scary and I think that the root of the issue is fear and insecurity. I never wish any harm on anyone, but I do have the right to get angry to protect my rights as a mother.
The other day when I wrote the post about balance, my brother(not the one I am working for) sent me an email and told me to “tell the truth”. Well, yes the truth of the matter is that I have been under a great amount of stress. I have been open about this. He was complaining because I have been “ignoring him”. Yes, in this last year, I have been focused mainly on getting myself back on my feet. I have been selfish only to think of the well being of my son and I. (more…)
Life is really funny. I had written the prior post on Sunday and scheduled it for the following day, which was yesterday. I’m glad I did because yesterday turned out to be a very stressful day. To make a long story short, my real estate deal fell apart. The appraisal came in a lot lower than expected. When I look back at the post, Balance is Peace Love and Happiness, I ponder on my own words:
The point is: Does it really matter when you achieve the success if the whole trip to the destination was a smooth ride filled with peace, love and happiness?
So now I am back to scraping when I thought I would be breathing easier with a cushion. Honestly, I don’t know how I would handle all this if I didn’t have my quiet time to write, like I am doing now. Because I am using this blog as a tool for my creative expression, it is helping me to move through all the unexpected jabs in a smoother way. And yes, while I am disappointed from all my efforts, it gives me more reason to see that doing this kind of work is not the best place for me to be at the moment. New doors have opened for me and I have to stay where it flows.