Happy New Year….

Wow! What an amazing year it has been. I had about four meltdowns, financial, health, love and now letting go of my home. I have learned with each experience, that the next one is easier. In this last week, I made a firm decision to put my house for sale. I have loved enjoying my butterfly garden and the comfort of this small cozy home for the past 15 years. The hard part is that where I am going, I cannot have Sparky, my labrador there. Read more

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The Seeds are Sprouting from the Pods

It has been about two months since I was actively engaged in this blog. So many things have happened in this time. I created this blog with my sister and was waiting for her to “get going.” In the meantime, I created my own video blog at www.destineddreams.com  and have been sharing my process about my financial meltdown there. I was giving my sister, Maria, time to digest an accelerated process that I probably took six years to integrate. 

So I stopped bugging her to “get going.” In this video I talk about sharing clips from last year with Maria. I also talk about how we value ourselves. I will be posting her clips under the category, “Maria’s process. Hopefully the symbol of the seeds appearing will get her going.;-) Read more

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Time for a Pause

I created this site with a lot of love and nurturing with my sister, Maria. We are collaberating as a team and are in the process of creating some great programs.  Because we both are working in a “day” job, have kids and many obligations, to not cause stress to each other and our families, we are allowing this site to flow organically and in harmony.

We spent one year conceptualizing, visioning and dreaming. In our fast paced world, “time” is an issue. For this reason, we are taking a short break of a month to further nurture our dreams. Read more

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Life Mirrors Our Reality

So much is going on right now with this financial crisis that I imagine we are all going through similar feelings of: Can we trust government? Can we trust the financial system? Can we trust our leaders? Can we trust the value of the dollar? Who can we trust?

We cannot ignore the fact that our current global economy is definitely a mirror of our world and our society as it is today, and on a more individual level, who we are as individuals and what our compass in life has become. Read more

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Looking for New Energy Sources

As I came home this evening I was feeling unusually tired, and as I sat down although feeling very tired I started to write this article and found myself becoming engrossed in the subject and forgot about being tired for the moment. I began to realize that I had gotten reenergized because I was doing what my dream has been to write and inspire people.

I couldn’t help but think of the issue of energy and a lack of energy which is something that I have dealt with for many years. Being overweight the last few years and having a lethargic metabolism and not being one to exercise on a regular basis, My main complaint for many years has been “I don’t have enough energy.” Feeling tired and run down all the time from running a household and working and having a private practice and at times taking care of everybody but myself. Read more

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Dear Life Letter

I had a dream last night that I actually died. I was laying in bed in a hospital and organically felt and saw what it was like to “pass on”. I don’t know if what I saw in the dream is actually what happens. I suppose no one can really say except God.

While I was emailing my sister, I got this insight of writing “dear Life letters”.  It is not my real thoughts. I am inventing a fictional character that regrets not doing much in life, someone who was negative and had a bad attitude in life.

In that dream, after I died, this world, this body, had no more attachment. I wasn’t pulled to go back. Something else was pulling me somewhere else and I was not afraid. I didn’t know where but it felt peaceful. It was just interesting that the body which once had life could collapse and just be a blob and lay there on the bed lifeless. I guess that is how many people are anyway, like walking zombies confused and walking aimlessly in life, complaining and not doing anything constructive with their lives. That’s sad.

Of course when you are really confronted with real death, you will fight for “dear life”. People should start writing letters to “dear life”, like this:

“Dear Life, sorry I have been such a drip with my self loathing attitude that I am no good and I can’t do this and I can’t do that. Sorry I couldn’t really see how beautiful this earth, this creation really is. Sorry I took it for granted. And all the people that surround me and attempted to give me hope but with my bad attitude, I didn’t believe them.

I’m sorry I didn’t take advantage of understanding how much I really can contribute in some way and that I do have something of value. I was so just darn afraid of being taken advantage again. You know, who can you trust in this world anyway.  I even bought into so many bad thoughts that I couldn’t concentrate on what good I could do. So dear life, be kind to me where you take me in what some people call the “afterlife”.

If it is called “after life” does that mean you are there too? Maybe then finally I will have a better life. Sorry I couldn’t make it better here. Oh well next time around, I promise to make it better. Just don’t give me that amnesia serum or that nasty bad hypnosis serum of all those distorted thoughts. I should of gotten out of that bad hypnosis earlier to see that you, Life, wasn’t so bad after all. Oh well, see you in the next one.”

Your truly,

Random Unnecessary Voice(Fictional Character)

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Remodeling Our Nation

Have you ever done a remodeling job in your house? Remember the experience, the frustration??? This is how it usually starts for me, I start to get an idea about a project that I want to do because I have become tired of the décor or it is outdated and old and needs remodeling. I can’t help but think that this is what we find ourselves in as the changes in our financial system and those around the world are collapsing. Ouch! That hurts to even write that. But we can not have that new room or new kitchen without tearing everything down and replacing everything. Is that not what we are facing globally? Remember what it was like during the construction? If you have never done a remodeling project let me give you a brief synopsis. The wonderful idea usually at some point turns into what feels like a disaster and a never ending project. As you live in the dust and the mess of the debris (if you have not been smart enough to move out) you start to question your sanity and “what were you thinking!” Read more

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My feet feel grounded

I am feeling my feet firmly on the ground. Feeling stable and secure is
something that is being ripped out of - from under the carpets, so to say for a lot of people nowadays.  In this financial crisis, Lehman Brothers going bankrupt, AIG Insurance being rescued by the federal government today, Merrill Lynch being bought out by Bank of America. Huge institutions worth hundreds of billions of trillions together are losing over 75% of their values.  And at the same time, all of the
people that comprise these organizations are feeling devalued.  Read more

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Can you see any symbols?

The passion that I have for my dream is greater now than the infancy of this relationship. I feel there is a possibility that I am choosing to go in this
direction right now. That is where my heart is. I thought I could do both;
I’m not sure if I can. Maybe I will. But for now, this is where I’m being led. 
A relationship does take time to nourish and to grow. And so it is with this new creative projects that I am doing with my sister. It all takes away from  my free time, besides the fact that I’m also a mother,and I also love
to enjoy time with my family and friends.

 We seem to be limited by time, but I realize that I limit myself in what I really want to achieve. Here I was confronted with finding a beautiful, potential relationship. Yet, it was broken up. Not by my intentions, initially. It was by fear, which we now realize. Now, I don’t know. I don’t know where I’m heading with the relationship; if I am or not. I’ve let it go for now.

It’s funny; I always look at symbols, any symbols around me. I was going to the bank, and there’s all these road blocks that say” Road Closed,  Local Traffic Only, Under Construction, Detour. 

That has been going on for one week on the road that I always usually take.  I always take the same road, and then I keep getting into that road block/detour. I’m just going to take that as a symbol that right now I’m going into that direction, a new direction, and following my dream.  This is a detour.If my dreams are to involve this man, I want to trust that, that God or a higher power will lead me to him. I just simply surrender right now into where I am led in my heart.

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Being grateful and being led

This past week has been an interesting week in my new relationship.  Things took an unexpected turn, and I broke it off.  There is still a possibility for there is much in the sense of understanding, compassion, and love and kindness, great qualities that do exist between myself and this other person.  However, I was feeling a disconnect  on an emotional level. I was sensing probably his fear of getting hurt even though he didn’t project it that way.  Read more

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