Suspended and Safe in Mid Air

by Blanca Stella on July 2, 2009

Photo Courtesy of Associated Press Sears Tower Glass Balcony

Photo Courtesy of Associated Press Sears Tower Glass Balcony

I saw this article today titled: Sears Tower Unveils 103rd Floor Glass Balconies. It is a good visual for what I have been going through this year. If I had a visual of last year during my financial meltdown and dismantling of my real estate career, I would post a picture of the bottom of the ocean.

Because of this blog, I simultaneously have maintained a higher vision where I wanted to be in my life while I maneuvered the crazy world related to my real estate work. Unfortunately, while I desperately hung on to dear life to create real estate deals, I almost sunk myself in the deep ocean of positioning myself as an REO realtor. 

After all, in my mind, it was the real estate deals that would pay my bills while I continued pursuing my dreams that I imagined kind of like the girl sitting on this glass balcony. Here is a quote from the article:

It’s very scary, but at the same time it’s very cool,” said Chanti Lawrence of Atlanta, adding that she’s made her first step toward overcoming her fear of heights.

During this whole ordeal, I never let go of my dreams to become an author. They have been temporarily put on hold, suspended in a sense, like the photo here. In my last post, I put the intention of getting a job as an operations director for a creative company. Once, I set that intention 100% and let go of my realtor identity, I got hired by my brother and one of my best friends to help them with their blogs. 

Because of my dream, I have spent thousands of hours at night in the last three to four years learning online marketing, online publishing,  and social media. It’s almost like a new degree! Now, these two people I love dearly want me to help them with putting up content on their own blogs and implement the same things I have done on this blog and other social mediums. My brother is a successful dermatologist and hair transplant surgeon. My friend is a successful business woman who is creating a company of inspiring clothes.

Their offer came within one week of shedding my realtor identity. They knew I was having a hard time finding a job and getting those bank listings. And I think they know that what I have learned on my own has value. For this reason now, I can pay my bills and do something I love: blogging, videoing, interacting in the social media realm.

I am still going to look for a “job”. I am tweaking my resume. These projects may be for only a few months or maybe longer. I am not sure. But my focus on finding immediate income was resolved for the moment. Maybe now, I can be my own operations director for my own dreams at night. The immediate stress has diminished temporarily. I will take it day by day…and continue step by step on my other goals on my free time at night. I am extremely grateful for the opportunity they have extended to me. I am going to give them my best effort to fulfill their goals.

Additionaly, in the past week, I have met several small business owners and enterpreuners like myself who want to create their own blogs. So I am going to work on consulting small businesses in their online marketing efforts.

So the words in the article, “scary but very cool” ring close to me. I was nervous, but it is so cool to be able to continue to look at the big picture while suspended in mid air. I am out from the bottom of the ocean. It served a great purpose. I seized the lessons with patience and trust. I know better days are ahead of me. I am sure of it. My heart feels it.

{ 4 comments… read them below or add one }

Tammy H. July 10, 2009 at 8:49 am

Blanca – Great blog and thanks for following me on Twitter. Our mutual friend is Maria Langer. Changes are scary – I know, we uprooted our whole family from NJ and moved the three boys up here to Vermont. But, you know what, it was the best thing that we have ever done. Change happens for a reason and is usually for the best, even though you might not be able to see the end result from where you stand at that moment in time. Good luck with your new endeavors, it sounds like you are both scared and excited and that will be a good thing. Hope to be a frequent visitor here. Blogging is a great way to “think it all out” and you get some great feedback, at least I know that I did on mine. Best of luck!

Blanca July 14, 2009 at 11:27 pm

Thanks for your support…It’s true, it can be scary..and exciting at the same time..change is good when there are back up plans. I look forward to reading your blog.

George July 18, 2009 at 9:41 pm

Seems like we have been going through a very similar path…thousands of night time hours over the last three years… I am glad that the immediate stress has diminished for the moment for you. I feel that I am close too…
It’s funny(or not), but for a long time people thought that I was just fiddling with my computer and wasting time while Rome was burning!

Blanca July 19, 2009 at 3:25 pm

Yes…well, you know the saying, early bird gets the worm:-)

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