It’s 11:30PM. My ankle is throbbing, throbbing!The vicodin is not working.I was trying to get off the the intravenous Dilautin. My nurse is busy with another patient. I almost panicking, but instead I pray. I remember what i was thinking about one hour ago what Eckhart Tolle said, “This too shall pass.”. I hold my hands to my heart knowing that I am not alone. I call in Jesus, God, anyone, help! The throbbing is still there….but less as I pray and clam down. I cannot succumb to the anxiety. I observe. I focus on the strength of my heart and the rest of me that feels whole This is just another step to surrender to the love of God. I could have panicked in this half hour. I am knowing it will pass…I have to move thru it.
11:50PM I cant help but cry. I try to be strong. Oh my God, the throbbing. The nurse is still busy with another patient in my worst hour. The nurse arrives. I get scared to be hooked on this Dilautin, but he says not to worry. The wound is still fresh, only two days old. I must relax. Its OK if I stay here another day. Im in good care. The doctor had wanted me to go home tomorrow morning. Is he insane? How can I go home with so much pain!
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