This week was one of renewing my dreams. Inspiring others is not difficult for me. It is something I have always loved to do. What I have found challenging is all the detail work to create a product from scratch. Also, it feels so vulnerable. Through this blog, I have been able to find my own voice and be comfortable with it on a more open platform. I have connected with many people in a very real way and have enjoyed it a lot.
I realized this week that all my yakking to my son in the last years has paid off. In one of my meltdown moments, I told him that I prefered to go to some tiny efficiency, work for someone and not have to think so much of how to put all this together. He told me that it was a cop out. Of course, moving into an efficiency would mean that he would have to move in to his father’s house. That is definitely something I don’t want! And now he was the one inspiring me.
Two years ago while working on the concepts with my sister, it became alive because we were working as a team, as partners for our future. Her abandoning the projects has been a big loss which took me a long time to get over. I was so sure we were going to do all these things together. I had absolutely no doubt at the time. I am still giving her time because I truly love her and believe in her talents and abilities. I just had to let go of the thought of her as a partner.
So now that my son has motivated me once again and I have some stability with my income (not complete yet), I told him today that he was my last hope to resurrect these projects. He is a very perceptive young man for his age. I also know he is very creative. When he was a toddler, he was always drawing all kinds of characters. It’s not that he was this great artist. It was more like a kid with a ton of ideas in his head.
I have planted many seeds, many ideas and implemented them. Even having the trademarks approved was a big thing. But right now the status is in intent to use. I still have to get them registered once I get the actual products going. I believe that the concept and preliminary work is 50% done. So it is not that I am starting from scratch.
I told him today if he got motivated and did some sketches to revamp the concept, even if they were stick people, I would pass them on to my brother who is a graphic artist. I have some scripts for the children’s books already and scripts for my inspirational CD’s. Maybe as a team we can make this work…or maybe not. He is still a student and have to let him be.
I also have to realize that he is only 16 years old and while I want to motivate him, I want him to do what his own passion is. I can guide him, but ultimately he has to be the one to self motivate himself. He still wants to create his own website of exotic cars. I have the domain set up for him, but he hasn’t taken the time to get that going. He drove tonight for the first time alone to a party now that he got his full driver’s license. So time will tell what he will do with his time. He may want to just have fun now that he is a free bird driving. For now, my heart has opened more with the gift he gave me this week – his inspiration.
Oh and by the way, the deal that that realtor had secured all for himself fell apart. My client emailed me last night wanting to see other homes. He told her that the bank had taken the listing away from him because the attorney handling it had a cash buyer. He also said that had never happened to him before. It is a very shady business. I think the attorney probably wanted it for someone he knew since it was a a steal of a deal. After he closes, I am sure it will be on the market again. Just my theory. We shall see. It’s a bit of a mafia business. Maybe I wasn’t meant to be involved in this kind of real estate after all. And if I was, I would do it different than the way most work it.
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