Yesterday I got the halo off of my foot. All in all, the pain wasn’t so bad as I thought. My friend Dan, had given me a good visual to do when the pins were being taken off. The visual was to say thank you to the pins for supporting my ankle during this time of healing. The doctor had to use pliers to cut the pins so the structure could be removed and then the pins were taken out.
What I had gotten used to that no longer hurt on my leg for 6 weeks, felt like freedom and a huge pressure off. It’s a very bizarre feeling and almost scary to think how we allow ourselves so much weight and pressure in our lives. We get so used to living on autopilot stress and in constant motion that we don’t realize how stressed we really are. That is until there is some breakdown of some sort, like illness or wake up calls.
We keep on going and going like the energizer bunny and then one day the battery is zapped. I was reading an article today about a guy that had depression. He would go out to social events and act out as if everything was totally fine, but at night he would be a totally different person. He was diagnosed with depression. The amount of energy it takes to maintain that facade eventually knocks you out.
http://nl.newsbank.com/nl-search/we/Archives?p_action=doc&p_docid=1220AEFFE46FCA10&p_docnum=1
For myself, this whole current ankle incident is as of a result of complete stress and breakdown I had 6 years ago. I have been slowwwllyyy repairing my mind, my heart, my soul, and now my physical ankle for the past 5 1/2 years. It does take a focus to remind yourself that you can choose to do it a different way, but slowly but surely, you eventually can fly.
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