I have had the worst two days of my life. They are issues relating to my ex-husband. I don’t think I can share all the details openly, but never in my life did I feel as threatened as I did today. It was pretty scary and I think that the root of the issue is fear and insecurity. I never wish any harm on anyone, but I do have the right to get angry to protect my rights as a mother.
The other day when I wrote the post about balance, my brother(not the one I am working for) sent me an email and told me to “tell the truth”. Well, yes the truth of the matter is that I have been under a great amount of stress. I have been open about this. He was complaining because I have been “ignoring him”. Yes, in this last year, I have been focused mainly on getting myself back on my feet. I have been selfish only to think of the well being of my son and I.
Is that wrong? Am I required to give attention to someone that has gotten it his entire life, much of it from me? I am the sibling that has given him the most love and attention. Yet when I focus on myself and when I am fighting for the stability of my home, am I required to give attention to someone that is whining about it?
So can I be angry today? Can I vent and say that enough is enough and I won’t tolerate any type of manipulation from anyone. Is it wrong to think only of myself and my son? Yet, under this kind of stress I have been able to maintain a strong mind and open heart. Because of this I have been able to receive new opportunities for work.
My son is aware of all the ruccus that has happened in the last two days. I told him that every painful experience is a lesson for him to rise above it. So in answer to the question about my brother saying “to tell the truth”:
This blog is not about ragging on someone and putting them down.
This blog is about rising above difficult situations and make them better.
This blog is about raising consciousness.
This blog is about taking a negative and turning it into a positive.
So while I may have a lot to rag about my brother and my ex-husband, I choose not to. This is not what this blog is about. I can say that I am angry, hurt, frustrated and extremely disappointed by certain behavoirs of other people. But this is not a kiss and tell to bring people down. Even with my sister, with all the hurt I have felt for her abandoning all the projects, I have never put her down. If anything, all I have said is that she has talent. So the way I look at it is that it is wasted talent sitting on the sidelines.
Just like my ex-husband, whatever good he has in him is overshadowed by his insecurities. I hope one day he can rise above them and teach my son, our son, a lesson of strength and integrity. I will say no more about him. Thank God another brother of mine gave my son some uplifting words to encourage him to rise above this. So there, I said it: I am really angry today! It is about injustice and lies. That I will not tolerate.
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