Inner Peace & An Active Mind Creates

Today I was sorting out all my real estate files. I thought for a moment: “What a waste.” Meaning, a waste of having all this knowledge and finally putting it to rest. I know real estate deals are closing, but I had made a decision last year to attempt to work with the bank listings. It didn’t work out. So I started thinking of all the mistakes I made. “Why did I put so much effort on a fruitless endeavor?”, I thought to myself again.

But then the thought hit me that in all my efforts of gaining knowledge, my mind stayed active. I didn’t allow the challenges to let me down. Ok, I have had many let downs this year on the surface. But all those let downs made me stronger. For some reason, I lived them. My rational mind says it was a failure. But my gut says, it was part of the process of enduring and gaining so much more beneath the surface.

Things are finally settling down. Hope has prevailed and the strong feeling in my heart of who I am has won. I held my inner value with my self esteem intact even with the financial limitations. No one should ever value themselves by their financials. It’s the inner value that is so precious.  So the lessons in what my rational mind sometimes says were fruitless, in the end were extremely fruitful. If I hadn’t maintained an active mind, I probably would have spiraled into depression.

It’s like when I was in the hospital after my car accident seven years ago. The nurses thought that I needed a psychologist because I seemed “too peaceful” with all my shattered bones. I knew my “accident” was a blessing at the time even though I didn’t expect the subsequent challenges. If I did, I would have probably been in a severe state of anxiety when I couldn’t walk for a year. What is important to learn is that I have always chosen the peaceful route amidst the chaos and it is precisely because of that, that many new roads in the game of life have opened for me.

So when you feel yourself in a state of chaos, remember there is the road of peace. And peace will lead you to a better place. I’m happy I chose that route because it is through a state of inner peace that a clear mind can discern which steps to take next.