I just took this picture a few minutes ago after yelling at Sparky to stop chewing on his bandage. Since my last post I have had a few stressful incidents. On Thursday, Sparky tore off his whole splint while I was away for a few hours. I bandaged it in a hurry hoping that the last 10 days of healing were not a waste.
After taking him to the vet the next day, he gave him a sedative to help this out of control behavior. He said to use it as needed. As soon as we got home, Sparky went after the bandage. I popped the sedative right away, though his stomach couldn’t handle it. Things have been calm for the past three days until a few minutes ago when I snapped this picture.
In addition, my cellphone froze Friday and a static image started to appear until the phone screen finally went blank. I have been without a cell phone since then.This all happened when I had a stressful incident with my brother(no need to describe). I have been trying to help him in the last four months since he came back from Colombia. He was living there for two years and came back heartbroken from a bad break up. He realized after this break up how much he loved her during the two year relationship.
I have been motivating him to start working by helping me with some creative projects that I have planned. I offered for him to be a part of them just as I did with my sister. But alas, I have learned that for anything come to fruition, you have to have a passion for it.
How else are you going to succeed in the midst of so many changes? I have held on by a very thin string to continue working in real estate. The bank listing have not happened. Hopefully they will soon now that the moratorium has been lifted. ( See link of Wall Street Journal Article on my real estate site)
It is a double edged sword because if I don’t get these listings, I will end up a statistic in foreclosure like millions of others. I am working with a few new clients that called me this past week to buy. So things are coming to light, but time is tight. At night I continue with my other projects. It doesn’t feel like work because I love doing the little step by steps to something that is real in my heart. I also have enjoyed my real estate work very much.
The good thing is that I stay healthy with a focused mind to be able to withstand all these challenges. I take no pills, antidepressants, drugs or alcohol to numb my stress. I only drink wine occasionally with dinner usually when I go out with friends. Exercise and meditation are my saving grace from all the insanity out there and craziness of my life turned upside down.
But sometimes no matter how strong you are, life brings you other situations to confront maybe as a test to further strengthen your spirit. That situation happens to be attempting to help my brother who is bi-polar. I really haven’t talked about it much except to say on my mirror site that I dedicated the site to him. Who wants to talk about these things? But it has been a big part of my life. And I am attempting to be real here. What good is it to say to someone: “Hey be happy and positive. Life is good”, without sharing the full story? At least that is what this blog is about: Attempting to stay sane, happy, and positive during the challenges and changes as they are happening.
I have been the only one in my family lately to attempt to help him. Three of my siblings are married with kids. My parents are now in their mid-70’s and are tired of all the dramas related to having a bi-polar son. Everyone is busy with responsibilities. I worry that he will go off the deep end in depression. So that is why I help. But I told him the other day that I had to let go to take care of myself. My situation is too critical right now. I reached out to the rest of my family this week so we can handle this together.
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