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Author: Blanca Stella

  • When It Rains It Pours

    rain with umbrellaI got back from the vet around 7PM. I have been raining tears down my face for a couple of hours.Sparky has cancer. That is why he didn’t have energy. The x-rays show it already has spread to his heart and lungs, so it looks pretty bad.  It is not related to his paw.

     Just when I thought he was getting better, and now this. And the weird thing is that in the afternoon right before I went to the vet, I made one of the best connections in the last six months with an asset manager. My thought was wow, just when I was throwing in the towel, I finally get some potential good news on my business. It still has happened yet, but it was a very good connection.

    I am still processing this feeling with Sparky. I have never loved a pet so much as I have him. He has been my constant companion. I brought him home and chose not to put him on IV’s and chemotherapy.  My brother says it is the best thing to do for now until I see him in unbearable distress. He is walking and ate tonight. What a long road this has been. (more…)

  • Depression Sets in With Sparky

    sparky-may-6-2009Since my last update on Sparky on April 19th, I’ve noticed that he seems depressed and has lost over five pounds.  Since that day that I gave him the sedative, I only had to give it to him one more time this past weekend. The reason I did this was because the vet had taken off the splint on Friday. So now Sparky only has a bandage and I was worried that if I left him alone all day Saturday, the temptation to take off the bandage would be great.  If sparky took off the bandage and started to lick his wound again, we would end up in square one.

    He  has been leaving his paw alone for the past three weeks.  But now I wonder if the pill was too strong for him. Even when Cristian takes him for a walk, he says he is unmotivated. Maybe that drug is too strong.

    I just took this picture of him sitting in the doorway. It is about 2 feet from my desk. He usually goes out in the sun when I leave the door open for him. His breathing is kind of heavy too, so I am kind of worried. Today I am going to the vet again. (more…)

  • Throwing In The Towel For The New Ship

    boats-in-marina-south-beach1In this cover story of USA Today, Chrysler has filed Chapter 11 bankruptcy. It says it is “their last ditch attempt to get in order before partnering with Italian automaker Fiat.” It also say that in 1980 the company “survived a near-death experience with government loans in the 1980’s and rebounded a few years later.”

    There is a saying: “What comes up, must come down.”  You don’t hear so much: “What comes down, must come up.” That would be the rebound.  If the crash is too hard, it might end up dead and have no fate of survival.

    Having had a near death experience, rebounding and now having a new “crash” in my career, I definitely feel like a ping pong ball. Why can’t it be: “What comes up stays up?” I know whatever circumstances I have experienced are a result of my own actions. I am not blaming anyone. Most of the time, I end up doing my work alone. The main reason was because I put most of my focus in these last 13 years on raising my son. I wrote about it here in this article titled, Let Cupid Point You in the Right Direction. (more…)

  • Wise Words From Old Man Moon

    I took these pictures on my official beach week  two weeks ago. Since then I have been in the “grind” working, as they say. Things are looking up. I finally got inspired to put this little video together from the pictures I took at Sunrise. Hope you enjoy.

  • Hope & The Towel Are Not in the Garbage Yet

    Hope Now
    Hope Now

    I should do a post: “A Day in The Life of A Realtor.” Maybe next week. Too much drama to get into right now. At least these last  two weeks, I started showing property to more solid buyers. I have put most of my attention to getting bank listings and just found out that the only asset manager connection that I have will not be giving listings until November.  I can’t wait until November! I’ll sink into the black lagoon.

    So I  applied again for other jobs this week as a back up plan.  I have been trying to get a job in the last couple of months while I was focused on the asset managers. All I have gotten is brick walls. Patience is definitely a virtue and I think I have mastered it in these months. (more…)

  • Time for Transformation

    Caterpillar in My Garden April 19, 2009
    Caterpillar in My Garden April 19, 2009

    Since I am talking about my brother being bipolar, I want to first say that I love him very much. I don’t know all the medical terminology or current ways of dealing with bi-polar. I just know what it is to have a family member live with this. I suppose one day he will write his story. He is only one year apart from me and is turning 50 next week. So the story is long and also inspiring.

    His life took a bad turn while he was in high school during the ’80’s when he indulged in many kinds of drugs. After many years of treatment in hospitals, he found a new path through meditating. He was able to be without Lithium for the past  20 years. It was a remarkable turnaround with no drugs or alcohol. He became a total vegetarian and even stopped dating for many years. He almost lived like a monk, except that he is not a recluse. On the contrary, he is very extroverted and is Mr. Communicator and knows many people in the community and in all kinds of social media. (more…)