Single Mom Shares How To Find Inner Peace, Self Esteem & Confidence. Transform Your Life!

Author: Blanca Stella

  • The Seeds are Sprouting from the Pods

    seeds-in-podIt has been about two months since I was actively engaged in this blog. So many things have happened in this time. I created this blog with my sister and was waiting for her to “get going.” In the meantime, I did a 21 day video process and shared my process about my financial meltdown there. I was giving my sister, Maria, time to digest an accelerated process that I probably took six years to integrate. 

    So I stopped bugging her to “get going.” In this video, I talk about sharing clips from last year with Maria when together we created our dream to work together. I also talk about how we value ourselves. Right now she is busy with her day job and responsibilities of family. Only time will tell if the seeds that were planted last year will come to sprout for us to work together.

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  • Bailout for a Company Spiraling to its Death

    The talks this week of the bailout for the auto industries has brought much opposing sides. On the one hand, if they are not bailed out, many people will be losing their jobs. If they file bankruptcy protection, they may emerge  out of this stronger than steel. It’s tough either way.

    Sometimes the “death” of something is really giving life to something else in a symbolic way. Death symbolically is letting go of something that is not working anymore. It is like the snake shedding its dry old skin. I myself, last year experienced the abyss like alot of people, But beyond the abyss there is new pasture, a new grounding place.  The oppportunities are there. While we are moving from here to there, it may feel like we are falling into an abyss, which some people may call it death. But really, the best way to ride that abyss is by being held in the arms of God, angels, guides, friends, family or anyone special in your life to help you get to the new destination. (more…)

  • 21 Day Video Meltdown

    From November 2 through November 23, I did 21 consecutive days of video when I was facing my financial meltdown. I started this site in June and I chose to do the videos because I trusted my gut on doing it. I was nervous and didn’t tell anyone about it.  I figured that way I could delete them later. My brother  found out about them  in the middle of it and told my family.

    What ended up happening is that it was a catharsis for me to accept my situation and stay strong. The person I was really doing it for was myself. I didn’t delete them hoping someone that is going through the same thing will get inspired to believe in the power of prayer and dreams.

    You can see all the videos on my you tube account:  21 Day Video Meltdown 

  • Time for a Pause

    zebra-cterpillars-on-vine-april-17-08-first-time-seeing-024I created this site with a lot of love and nurturing with my sister, Maria. We are collaborating as a team and are in the process of creating some great programs.  We both are working in our individual “day” jobs, have kids and many obligations. To not cause stress to each other and our families, we are allowing this site to flow organically and in harmony.

    We spent one year conceptualizing, visioning and dreaming. In our fast paced world, “time” is an issue. For this reason, we are taking a short break of a month to further nurture our dreams. (more…)

  • Dear Life Letter

    I had a dream last night that I actually died. I was laying in bed in a hospital and organically felt and saw what it was like to “pass on”. I don’t know if what I saw in the dream is actually what happens. I suppose no one can really say except God.

    While I was emailing my sister, I got this insight of writing “dear Life letters”.  It is not my real thoughts. I am inventing a fictional character that regrets not doing much in life, someone who was negative and had a bad attitude in life.

    In that dream, after I died, this world, this body, had no more attachment. I wasn’t pulled to go back. Something else was pulling me somewhere else and I was not afraid. I didn’t know where but it felt peaceful. It was just interesting that the body which once had life could collapse and just be a blob and lay there on the bed lifeless. I guess that is how many people are anyway, like walking zombies confused and walking aimlessly in life, complaining and not doing anything constructive with their lives. That’s sad.

    Of course when you are really confronted with real death, you will fight for “dear life”. People should start writing letters to “dear life”, like this:

    “Dear Life, sorry I have been such a drip with my self loathing attitude that I am no good and I can’t do this and I can’t do that. Sorry I couldn’t really see how beautiful this earth, this creation really is. Sorry I took it for granted. And all the people that surround me and attempted to give me hope but with my bad attitude, I didn’t believe them.

    I’m sorry I didn’t take advantage of understanding how much I really can contribute in some way and that I do have something of value. I was so just darn afraid of being taken advantage again. You know, who can you trust in this world anyway.  I even bought into so many bad thoughts that I couldn’t concentrate on what good I could do. So dear life, be kind to me where you take me in what some people call the “afterlife”.

    If it is called “after life” does that mean you are there too? Maybe then finally I will have a better life. Sorry I couldn’t make it better here. Oh well next time around, I promise to make it better. Just don’t give me that amnesia serum or that nasty bad hypnosis serum of all those distorted thoughts. I should of gotten out of that bad hypnosis earlier to see that you, Life, wasn’t so bad after all. Oh well, see you in the next one.”

    Your truly,

    Random Unnecessary Voice(Fictional Character)

  • My Weakness is My Strength

    img_0028The  severe car accident  made me stop in my tracks and  stopped me from walking for one year. It was a huge wake up call, which eventually led to reflecting a lot and spending time alone purposefully without a relationship with a man for the past 4 years.

    The process to create a new foundation and to recreate my life was not an easy one. It took a lot of trust. It took a lot of faith. It took a lot of letting go, along with some aggravation,uncertainties and anxieties that popped up. But I persisted because the insights that I was getting in my heart were coming in much too strong. (more…)