That is how long it has been since I have blogged. This project for me has been like my little baby. I’ve nurtured all the messages I’ve written and feel in a way like I abandoned ship. But I do have good reason. I have been nurturing my soul in a new way. I met someone before my surgery and after my halo on my ankle wasremoved, I have been out like a free bird enjoying the light heartedness that comes with dating some one new that feels like it has potential to grow into something deeper.
It has caught me totally by surprise, but after a few weeks of enjoyment of the newness, imy mind had bursts of outrage, like ” are you out of your mind?” What if he is some clever, manipulating and calculating one that is pretending to be nice.” “Don’t fall into that trap again,or its all
over”. I felt myself like I was ready to fall into an unknown territory
especially since it feels so “right”. The bottom line is trust- much of what has been broken in the past. I realized that my fear is not only a broken trust, but a broken heart. Who wants to go thru that again. (more…)



