The passion that I have for my dream is greater now than the infancy of this relationship. I feel there is a possibility that I am choosing to go in this direction right now. That is where my heart is. I thought I could do both; I’m not sure if I can. Maybe I will. But for now, this is where I’m being led. A relationship does take time to nourish and to grow. And so it is with this new creative projects that I am doing with my sister. It all takes away from my free time, besides the fact that I’m also a mother, and I also love to enjoy time with my family and friends.
We seem to be limited by time, but I realize that I limit myself in what I really want to achieve. Here I was confronted with finding a beautiful, potential relationship. Yet, it was broken up. Not by my intentions, initially. It was by fear, which we now realize. Now, I don’t know. I don’t know where I’m heading with the relationship; if I am or not. I’ve let it go for now.
It’s funny; I always look at symbols, any symbols around me. I was going to the bank, and there’s all these road blocks that say” Road Closed, Local Traffic Only, Under Construction, Detour.
That has been going on for one week on the road that I always usually take. I always take the same road, and then I keep getting into that road block/detour. I’m just going to take that as a symbol that right now I’m going into that direction, a new direction, and following my dream. This is a detour.If my dreams are to involve this man, I want to trust that, that God or a higher power will lead me to him. I just simply surrender right now into where I am led in my heart.
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