Tag: God

  • Bailout for a Company Spiraling to its Death

    The talks this week of the bailout for the auto industries has brought much opposing sides. On the one hand, if they are not bailed out, many people will be losing their jobs. If they file bankruptcy protection, they may emerge  out of this stronger than steel. It’s tough either way.

    Sometimes the “death” of something is really giving life to something else in a symbolic way. Death symbolically is letting go of something that is not working anymore. It is like the snake shedding its dry old skin. I myself, last year experienced the abyss like alot of people, But beyond the abyss there is new pasture, a new grounding place.  The oppportunities are there. While we are moving from here to there, it may feel like we are falling into an abyss, which some people may call it death. But really, the best way to ride that abyss is by being held in the arms of God, angels, guides, friends, family or anyone special in your life to help you get to the new destination. (more…)

  • My Weakness is My Strength

    img_0028The  severe car accident  made me stop in my tracks and  stopped me from walking for one year. It was a huge wake up call, which eventually led to reflecting a lot and spending time alone purposefully without a relationship with a man for the past 4 years.

    The process to create a new foundation and to recreate my life was not an easy one. It took a lot of trust. It took a lot of faith. It took a lot of letting go, along with some aggravation,uncertainties and anxieties that popped up. But I persisted because the insights that I was getting in my heart were coming in much too strong. (more…)

  • Can You See Any Symbols?

    detourThe passion that I have for my dream is greater now than the infancy of this relationship. I feel there is a possibility that I am choosing to go in this direction right now. That is where my heart is. I thought I could do both; I’m not sure if I can. Maybe I will. But for now, this is where I’m being led. A relationship does take time to nourish and to grow.  And so it is with this new creative projects that I am doing with my sister. It all takes away from  my free time, besides the fact that I’m also a mother, and I also love to enjoy time with my family and friends.

     We seem to be limited by time, but I realize that I limit myself in what I really want to achieve. Here I was confronted with finding a beautiful, potential relationship. Yet, it was broken up. Not by my intentions, initially. It was by fear, which we now realize. Now, I don’t know. I don’t know where I’m heading with the relationship; if I am or not. I’ve let it go for now. (more…)

  • Acknowledging Our Real Value

    dollars-50-100I was talking to an acquaintance who has been very successful in business.  For her, there seems to be a lack of acknowledgement of the love that she feels from her mother.  Not for her mother, but from her mother. Her mother grew up  feeling  lack financially, and even though her mother was  a hard worker and able to create a good sustenance financially, for some reason she projected unconsciously, all this lack from her upbringing to her daughter. It doesn’t mean she doesn’t love her, because I know she does.

     Her daughter, my friend has overcompensated,  by creating a life filled with so much joy, so much love and generosity of spirit for a tremendous amount of people, including a tremendous amount of financial stability and financial wealth.  What she feels still in her heart, is a sense  of lack, because she thinks she is needing  acknowledgement from her mother to feel filled.  (more…)

  • Leap of Faith and Taking Baby Steps

    baby-toddlerWhat if your destiny is nothing but taking small steps, led by a vision that you have initialized by a leap of faith in your hopes dreams and desires, and you are taken into a reality that becomes your destiny. For me, the word “destiny” or “fate” connotates sometimes something too big and therefore a sense of being unattainable.

     I know that I have taken many steps towards a vision, but sometimes give up hope because the steps seem too much. t’s like stopping at 10,000 steps when the  10001 step was the critical one that takes a quantum turn which then catapults you to your destiny which seemed unfathomable in step 9,999.  It is that leap of faith as you hold on to your vision supported by a love so great from a higher power or God, that I imagine can lead me to what I thought at certain times unattainable.

    I have many big hopes and dreams for a greater life for my son and myself- for a better life and for a vision I have of inspiring children. Maybe I am on step 4999. That trust in a higher power is my fuel to continue all the remaining steps. Little by little, step by step. You never know, maybe step 5001 is that quantum step, or it could be 10001. Who knows.

    But it sure does feel better knowing that I WILL be at a destination – my destiny soon enough, as long as I continue taking those baby
    steps.

  • Strong Yet Vulnerable

    It’s approaching that 3 month stage of getting to know someone new in a relationship that has the potential to expand into something very deep and beautiful. But those vulnerabilities kick in as you are attempting to establish whether or not the relationship is going somewhere or not.

    At an older age where there has been divorce and other disappointments, its hard to trust and be free and vulnerable. Then there comes into play the children and blended families. How can all this be embraced in a harmonious way. Right when you think something is going so good, the axe may come and rip it apart.  I meditated today, reminding myself what I wrote to a friend who is suffering from a very broken heart- to feel whole in herself, to feel her heart mending so she can love once again freely and happily.

     In my case, I spent many years alone(4) since my last relationship, and have mended much within myself. But love is so vulnerable, that even though I feel strong in my heart, I have to remind myself that I am doing it different now, and see the wholeness within myself, free of lack. This way I can ground myself more fully with who I am and if it is to come that the relationship gets axed by whatever party involved, I will not be so broken.

     I will be able to move freely without any loss. Yes, the words are easy to say, but when that vulnerability and rawness is so open and
    present, you can’t but help to going into the sensation of sadness if something is to break up. I have felt some confusion and questioning this past week if this is possible while juggling all my other things_ work and time with my son and time for myself.

     After reflecting I thought that if something is meant to be, and it is truly real, then God can rearrange all events so that it can flow and
    be harmonious. Again, I am surrendering to whatever is my own highest good. The vulnerability is there. I am starting to feel a lot for this person, yet when the uncertainty comes into play, I tend to close up to not feel that vulnerability. But I don’t want to close up. I want to feel whatever fears come up and move through them and trust that God will guide me in my highest path