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  • Grieving Sparky – The Ultimate Companion

    Last night after I wrote my last post, I stayed up on the computer for a bit, then laid down to watch some Tivo recordings. I watched the interview of Elizabeth Edwards with Oprah. She said that whatever has happened with her husband’s extramarital affairs doesn’t affect her.

    Although I disagree, I give her a lot of credit for taking that stance because she is also dealing with a terminal illness, cancer.  She says the doctors don’t tell her how long she has to live. It could be one year or 10. The point is that she is diagnosed with something terminal. So she is focusing on her family and what she has built to attain that bubble of the “Edward’s family.” And most importantly, she is focused on her small children. That is admirable and it takes a lot of courage to take that stance.

    If I were diagnosed with terminal cancer and at the same time find out that my husband was having an affair AND have small children to attend to, it really would be too much too bear. That is why I support her stance. Personally, I would leave the man. Who cares that they built a 23,000 sq. foot dream home three years ago. What good is a huge house if that house is filled with thoughts of betrayal? I’d rather be alone. (more…)

  • Sparky’s Spirit is In My Heart

    Sparky & Me April 14, 2009
    Sparky & Me April 14, 2009

    It is 1:11AM as I sit to write this. I just came back from taking Sparky to the vet where the people from Pet-Heaven will take care of his remains. What remains is the beautiful spirit of Sparky in my heart. Just after I wrote the last post, I laid down to see if he would settle down. I had tried to do that earlier but he got restless. And I got restless. Most nights, if I was on the computer, he would wait until I would lay down to sleep with the lights off.  That is when he would come and sleep next to me on his cushion, right next to my bed. It was a daily ritual which I always thought was sweet.

    As I laid down, I lit a candle with the lights off. He stood in the doorway and looked at me, turned around and went into Cristian’s room. I got the thought that he wanted the lights out. I blew out the candle and he came back to my room,  and right that minute he collapsed  next to me on his cushion. I got up from my bed, gave him a big hug and he took his last breath. This all happened within 15 minutes of my last post.

    Cristian came in and hugged him too as we both cried together. Cristian said it was bittersweet. We were happy to share this moment and that Sparky took his last breath this way. My sister was on her way with my niece to see him for the last time, but when she arrived it was too late.  We all then took him to the vet. As I left, I felt at peace for the way this happened. It was very fast and unexpected. His paw was already healing, but at least he didn’t suffer too much. Time to rest.

    Sparky & Cristian April 24, 2009
    Sparky & Cristian April 24, 2009

     

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  • Update on Sparky’s Wound..My Labrador

    sparky my labrador march 09Sparky’s paw still has an exposed wound. I have been taking many precautions and  care  in the past six months so it doesn’t get infected. However, he is over 100 pounds, very stubborn and refuses to let it heal with the bandage. This picture where I found a brace usually only lasts about a couple of hours. Then he maneuvers to take it off, when I am not looking.

    I am at my wits end. I am tired of yelling at him. I yo- yo between ignoring him and back to worrying about his paw. As I observed him the other day, I wondered if he is now used to the pain of this exposed wound. I know it must hurt him, even though he still walks normal yet with a slight limp.

    I finally had an idea the other day of maybe getting a cast on it, just like I had when I broke my bones.  My brother, Ricardo, who is a dermatologist sent pictures of  Sparky’s wound to a dermatological vet. He said that Sparky’s condition is an obsessive compulsive disorder.  The wound started because he scratched a groomer. What started as a small wound ended becoming bigger and bigger as he continuously licks it.  The vet says that this type of condition is very hard to get rid of and that some people have tried snake venom to prevent this.

    The problem is that it keeps getting bigger and bigger as time goes by. Isn’t this true with our own emotions? Don’t we sometimes suppress them again and again when a trigger causes us to react and suddenly we are exposed?  My own process  has been long and painful. At least I finally feel my heart is in a better place, stronger and ready to take the punches without a meltdown. I only hope Sparky heals soon.