Tag: Personal Growth

  • Happy New Year….Letting Go of the Year of Personal Meltdowns

    august-to-october-2008-275Wow! What an amazing year it has been. I had about four meltdowns, financial, health, love and possibly letting go of my home. I have learned with each experience, that the next one is easier.  All this restructuring in the middle of the madhouse of this financial meltdown in the world has made me feel like this cartoon that came out in the Miami Herald today: http://www.miamiherald.com/opinion/jim-morin/image_media/831682.html.

    I look forward to 2009 with a fresh outlook. I see the statistics that the economy is going to be worse. But with all these meltdowns behind my belt, I know I can now withstand any storm. The key is to stay in trust, focus, faith and surrender to something greater. Sounds simple. It is not easy, but it is the best way. Cheers to a better year for everyone!

  • Can You See Any Symbols?

    detourThe passion that I have for my dream is greater now than the infancy of this relationship. I feel there is a possibility that I am choosing to go in this direction right now. That is where my heart is. I thought I could do both; I’m not sure if I can. Maybe I will. But for now, this is where I’m being led. A relationship does take time to nourish and to grow.  And so it is with this new creative projects that I am doing with my sister. It all takes away from  my free time, besides the fact that I’m also a mother, and I also love to enjoy time with my family and friends.

     We seem to be limited by time, but I realize that I limit myself in what I really want to achieve. Here I was confronted with finding a beautiful, potential relationship. Yet, it was broken up. Not by my intentions, initially. It was by fear, which we now realize. Now, I don’t know. I don’t know where I’m heading with the relationship; if I am or not. I’ve let it go for now. (more…)

  • Tending the Garden

    zebra-cterpillars-on-vine-april-17-08-first-time-seeing-024I haven’t tended to my garden much since my surgery in June because I couldn’t. I was able to observe it walking around with my crutches and walker while I recuperated.  But I couldn’t take out all the weeds that were accumulating around my passion vine, which attracts butterflies or my bleeding heart vine which has a beautiful red flower.

    Today I took the plunge and while the vines were growing amazingly, the weeds were entangled in these vines. I had to tend to my garden because it seemed the garden was becoming a mess. The same goes with all our relationships. If we don’t tend to them, and disentangle the “weeds”, life suddenly becomes chaotic. As you tend and disentangle and clean out the debris and the bad weeds, the beauty and simplicity of the good vines shine freely, so the beauty of them can be appreciated.

  • My Foot is Free…Getting There

    Yesterday I got the halo off of my foot. All in all, the pain wasn’t so bad as I thought. My friend Dan, had given me a good visual to do when the pins were being taken off. The visual was to say thank you  to the pins for supporting my ankle during this time of healing. The doctor had to use pliers to cut the pins so the structure could be removed and then the pins were taken out. (more…)

  • Born and Attempting to Fly

     

    This morning at 10Am,I went to see if the butterfly had been born yet and sure enough, the shell of the cryssalis was there. I was a bit disappointed that I wasnt able to see it come out of the chryssalis. It was symbolic fo rme this week, this butterfly of my readiness to get  out and get ready to walk freely. As i was about to go back in, i saw a butterfly on the ground. It was attempting to fly and I realized that this was the butterfly that was born. It had not taken flight yet. (more…)

  • A Hostage in My Own Mind

    When I had my acar accident 5 1/2 years ago, I didn’t know what hit me. All I did know was that I was stressed and miserable in a 7 year relationship that was very dysfunctional. In my work, I was doing great, but inside I was breaking at the seams. The last post I wrote about my Chryssalis was a metaphor about how we must take time to pause and rethink what direction we are heading, as individuals, as families, as a community, as a nation and as a planet. (more…)