Tag: Personal Growth

Yesterday I woke up and it was the first time I had slept the whole night thru. I started taking half a vociodn. The pain has substantially subsided and today also. I am not moving around so much. Just taking it easy, reading and being more quiet with not so many people around. I am letting Cristian take responsibility in taking care of me. I try to be peaceful.

 I was supposed to take the vicodin and anti-inflammatory at separate times and diligently writing every time I took them so I wouldn’t get them confused. Its weird, I spend so much time focused on , “When do i take my next pain pill?” Because of sleeping the night before and the time passing, I ended up starting my pain meds simultaneously all  day yesterday. By night time and the 4^th round of pills,I was very nauseus and my stomach went, “out you go”.

 At the same time, I am getting a cramp on my leg and I broke down crying. Its not  easy carrying this apparatus in my leg. Its so bulky and since it is drilled by about 10 thick pins from below my knees to my foot, it also feels very uncomfortable.

 And on top of that my foot is recovering from the other surgery of removing my old plates and pins. So I went from bionic ankle to a shishkobob on my ankle.  So here I am feeling the pain. I decided to take extra strength Tylenol to give my stomach a break. The thing is that I am feeling the pain more raw. I have to see how long I can tolerate it. I am trying to get off the pain pills.

I went to the doctors office today. Everything looks good so far.I have been waking up showering and doing the routine to feel good, put on a dress, put on make up. I have friends visiting, but by night time the pain is there. I am taking the pain medications every 4 hours writing every thing down so I don’t have to feel the pain and miss a dosage. (more…)

I am getting settled at home. These past days, my mother has stayed here to nurse my wounds and take care of me. She is the most loving and caring woman. I am so lucky and grateful to have her as a mother. I know this definitely helps in my healing process.

I have the pain medication in order, but I wake up to a throbbing heat pain in the sole of my foot. I am thinking “tolerate, tolerate”. At the same time Cristian, my son, wakes up with a terrible nose bleed. My mom is not here. I have stayed here alone with him. I try to remain calm.