I have been working intensely, with my sister, Maria in the last nine months uncovering some of my own wounds. Good thing she is a therapist. I can be a good left brain person, but when it comes to my emotions, when they are strong, I “feel” everything so much. That has always been my nature. I always thought it was my weakest part. But with all this new quantum physics coming out, they say for something to manifest, besides visualizing and thinking something to happen, you are supposed to feel it. (more…)
Tag: Personal Growth
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Finality to the dramas
I just had a drama with a nurse from 9am to noon today. There was a miscommunication between the pharmacy and the nurse station. I needed the pain pill and now an antiinflammatory that the doctor ordered and nothing happened in those hours. They felt like a lifetime. I cried all morning in pain. I feel like a druggie just wanting those darn pills to knock this pain out. My doctor came in telling me to be tough and go home. Yeah right. I dont want to be tough right now. I am having a pain crisis. (more…)
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Its throbbing! please stop the pain
It’s 11:30PM. My ankle is throbbing, throbbing!The vicodin is not working.I was trying to get off the the intravenous Dilautin. My nurse is busy with another patient. I almost panicking, but instead I pray. I remember what i was thinking about one hour ago what Eckhart Tolle said, “This too shall pass.”. I hold my hands to my heart knowing that I am not alone. I call in Jesus, God, anyone, help! The throbbing is still there….but less as I pray and clam down. I cannot succumb to the anxiety. I observe. I focus on the strength of my heart and the rest of me that feels whole This is just another step to surrender to the love of God. I could have panicked in this half hour. I am knowing it will pass…I have to move thru it. (more…)
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It Hurts, Block My Pain Please!
Its 2PM. I am here in the hospital. The surgery went well. The pain has been intense. I think all the nerves in the foot and all the diggings , as the doctor put it, to take out all the pins caused a lot of discomfort. One pin, he said was right on the joint and two were so deeply embedded he had to leave them. I was given morphine and a nerve block the first day coming out of surgery. (more…) -
The Power of Focused Prayer
I am going to the hospital tomorrow for reconstructive surgery on my ankle. I have traumatic arthritis and diminished cartilage due to a car accident 5 1/2 years ago. The procedure is going to be two fold, first all the metal, about a dozen pins and two plates, are going to be removed and am going to have a “halo” attached, also called Ilizarov and drilled into the bone in 12 places from my foot to my shin. It will be giving space to my joint and basically will look like I am a human shiskobob. I will have this attached 24/7 to my ankle for 6 weeks. (more…)
