I’ve worked so hard in these past two years to maintain my sanity during all the chaos in my life. With a clear mind, open heart and new connections that I have made, I finally feel today that a breakthrough is happening.
At many many networking events and tweetups, I ask people whose business also has slowed to a crawl, how they managed the chaos. Usually the answer I get is being in nature and faith.
I have shared in the last year on this blog where my peace has come from. It has been a long road. Yet, I know I will look back sometime in the future to this time and realize that this time gave me amazing lessons. Humility is the main one. (more…)
For the past three weeks, I have done a catharsis in the way of writing letters to this man that I let go of. It was my way of understanding my feelings and emotions that I didn’t know had gone so deep. What has happened is that the writings are so much that I believe it has turned out to a book.
The passion that I have for my dream is greater now than the infancy of this relationship. I feel there is a possibility that I am choosing to go in this direction right now. That is where my heart is. I thought I could do both; I’m not sure if I can. Maybe I will. But for now, this is where I’m being led. A relationship does take time to nourish and to grow. And so it is with this new creative projects that I am doing with my sister. It all takes away from my free time, besides the fact that I’m also a mother, and I also love to enjoy time with my family and friends.
This past week has been an interesting week in my new relationship. Things took an unexpected turn, and I broke it off. There is still a possibility for there is much in the sense of understanding, compassion, and love and kindness, great qualities that do exist between myself and this other person. However, I was feeling a disconnect on an emotional level. I was sensing probably his fear of getting hurt even though he didn’t project it that way. 
That is how long it has been since I have blogged. This project for me has been like my little baby. I’ve nurtured all the messages I’ve written and feel in a way like I abandoned ship. But I do have good reason. I have been nurturing my soul in a new way. I met someone before my surgery and after my halo on my ankle wasremoved, I have been out like a free bird enjoying the light heartedness that comes with dating some one new that feels like it has potential to grow into something deeper.