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  • A Time to Reflect and Take a Break

    kiteAs they say, there is a time and a season, and for me, the season of this relationship which seemed to be flourishing has taken a turn in the wind. It is not out of conflict, but simply what I sense out of fear of embracing what can be so grand and expanding, but in the midst of uncertainty and limitations with him finding a job, it must be set free.

    It all started with him looking ahead a few months and seeing that there might be a turn in the road and in his anticipation, wanted to be clear and afraid of hurting me in case he found a job in another city. He is having difficulty finding a job in his industry and the gloom on the streets is not giving him confidence to find work in the field he has been for so many years.

    I understand this, but I also said that love is the most powerful force, and love can find ways if 2 people in love are meant to be together. I put the intention of a divine love and I believe anything with that kind of intention can move mountains. I understand his confusion and anxiety It is out there in so many ways.

     But I am also in the midst of starting over in my own business. I was feeling that love can support and uplift each other, but instead it seems fear and anxiety is taking over. I am  sad, but not heartbroken. I have to set it free and what may have been a potential for what I thought was something greater can be burst in the wind and freed of its
    limitations.

    For my feeling is that true love is beyond any restrictions and if embraced fully- can create magic.

  • Strong Yet Vulnerable

    It’s approaching that 3 month stage of getting to know someone new in a relationship that has the potential to expand into something very deep and beautiful. But those vulnerabilities kick in as you are attempting to establish whether or not the relationship is going somewhere or not.

    At an older age where there has been divorce and other disappointments, its hard to trust and be free and vulnerable. Then there comes into play the children and blended families. How can all this be embraced in a harmonious way. Right when you think something is going so good, the axe may come and rip it apart.  I meditated today, reminding myself what I wrote to a friend who is suffering from a very broken heart- to feel whole in herself, to feel her heart mending so she can love once again freely and happily.

     In my case, I spent many years alone(4) since my last relationship, and have mended much within myself. But love is so vulnerable, that even though I feel strong in my heart, I have to remind myself that I am doing it different now, and see the wholeness within myself, free of lack. This way I can ground myself more fully with who I am and if it is to come that the relationship gets axed by whatever party involved, I will not be so broken.

     I will be able to move freely without any loss. Yes, the words are easy to say, but when that vulnerability and rawness is so open and
    present, you can’t but help to going into the sensation of sadness if something is to break up. I have felt some confusion and questioning this past week if this is possible while juggling all my other things_ work and time with my son and time for myself.

     After reflecting I thought that if something is meant to be, and it is truly real, then God can rearrange all events so that it can flow and
    be harmonious. Again, I am surrendering to whatever is my own highest good. The vulnerability is there. I am starting to feel a lot for this person, yet when the uncertainty comes into play, I tend to close up to not feel that vulnerability. But I don’t want to close up. I want to feel whatever fears come up and move through them and trust that God will guide me in my highest path

  • Be vulnerable or run away?

    My “new” relationship with this man has continued. I have found that because my main purpose and intent is to have a divine spiritual and uplifting relationship, it actually makes me even more vulnerable. Before I covered up my vulnerabilities with a man, that deep core part of me that connects to God in my own way, and I safely tucked it in the hidden recess of my heart and soul. (more…)

  • 21 Days to a Better View

    rain-bow-butterfly-mcmuseumThat is how long it has been since I have blogged. This project for me has been like my little baby. I’ve nurtured all the messages I’ve written and feel in a way like I abandoned ship. But I do have good reason. I have been nurturing my soul in a new way. I met someone before my surgery and after my halo on my ankle wasremoved, I have been out like a free bird enjoying the light heartedness that comes with dating some one new that feels like it has potential to grow into something deeper.

    It has caught me totally by surprise, but after a few weeks of enjoyment of the newness, imy mind had bursts of outrage, like ” are you out of your mind?” What if he is some clever, manipulating and calculating one that is pretending to be nice.” “Don’t fall into that trap again,or its all
    over”. I felt myself like I was ready to fall into an unknown territory
    especially since it feels so “right”. The bottom line is trust- much of what has been broken in the past. I realized that my fear is not only a broken trust, but a broken heart. Who wants to go thru that again. (more…)

  • Divine Relationships Start With You

    Bird in Blue SkyI was reading in the paper the other day that there are less divorces here in Miami compared to last year. One of the reasons  is because of the economy most people cannot afford to have two households. When equity was rising, you could cash out and buy something else. Right now, it’s not an option for most people. The article also states that it is possible that some couples may end up working it out. We have given up too easily in marriages. The marriage counseler says “I think we throw away our relationships too easily.”
    I for myself was divorced in 13 years ago when my son was only 2 1/2. The intention of the marriage full fledged in Catholic church was to stay for a lifetime. When I got pregnant, I had a conscious intention that day to conceive. For me, that was divine. And today and every day of his life, my son is my most precious gift.  He is the one that motivated to keep going when everything broke apart in the divorce and all my challenges.  He has been my source of not giving up. (more…)

  • A Hostage in My Own Mind

    When I had my acar accident 5 1/2 years ago, I didn’t know what hit me. All I did know was that I was stressed and miserable in a 7 year relationship that was very dysfunctional. In my work, I was doing great, but inside I was breaking at the seams. The last post I wrote about my Chryssalis was a metaphor about how we must take time to pause and rethink what direction we are heading, as individuals, as families, as a community, as a nation and as a planet. (more…)