Life is really funny. I had written the prior post on Sunday and scheduled it for the following day, which was yesterday. I’m glad I did because yesterday turned out to be a very stressful day. To make a long story short, my real estate deal fell apart. The appraisal came in a lot lower than expected. When I look back at the post, Balance is Peace Love and Happiness, I ponder on my own words:
The point is: Does it really matter when you achieve the success if the whole trip to the destination was a smooth ride filled with peace, love and happiness?
So now I am back to scraping when I thought I would be breathing easier with a cushion. Honestly, I don’t know how I would handle all this if I didn’t have my quiet time to write, like I am doing now. Because I am using this blog as a tool for my creative expression, it is helping me to move through all the unexpected jabs in a smoother way. And yes, while I am disappointed from all my efforts, it gives me more reason to see that doing this kind of work is not the best place for me to be at the moment. New doors have opened for me and I have to stay where it flows.
I have been writing these past days non stop some letters to myself which are addressed to my boyfriend. It is my way of letting go, writing letters. Its my way of releasing whatever range of emotions are going thru me instead of yakking my head off to my friends and driving them crazy. Here is an excerpt from today: