I took Sparky, my beautiful labrador back to the vet today to speak to the Doctor about my options. The one that was attending him with the paw issue was not there yesterday. He showed me the x-rays again and explained that there is barely any lung space for him to breathe. He has three tumors and it is blocking his lungs. The cancer is all in his chest cavaty. I was thinking in my mind that maybe Sparky had a few months to live. But as I was driving there, I saw Sparky’s breathing getting heavier and heavier.
Cristian had to lift him into the car. Any movement like this is causing stress to his heart. He barely was able to walk in the vet’s office. To my shock, the vet told me that he only maybe has 1 week to live. I have been crying off and on today while trying to do some work. While at the vet, I called Cristian to tell him that we have to put him to sleep because he is in of pain. Cristian started crying. He wasn’t expecting this so sudden. Neither was I. I brought him back home so we could have one last night with Sparky.
At first Sparky didn’t know where to lay down. He just stood there panting. My anguish of not only knowing if he is in terrible pain and knowing that this is the last night with my beautiful member of my family. As I write now, he is standing next to me. His breathing has gotten at least 60% worse than yesterday. He constantly sounds as if he just ran a marathon.He looks restless. He wavers between laying down and walking from room to room. If it gets worse maybe I will have to take him tonight. Like Cristian said: There is no replacement for Sparky. I must go lay down now, maybe in the hopes that he lay down too.
We are going to put him down tomorrow. I called my dear friend Miriam who has helped me in so many ways with picking up Cristian at school and doing many things for me in the past years. Sparky was very close to her heart.
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