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  • Gratitude in My Heart Prevails Anxiety

    red-flower1I started this blog with the idea of starting a business in publishing with my sister.  We have a layout of a book that was supposed to be written a year ago. Maybe the book needs more time. (It is different than the manuscript I wrote myself). If you read my last post, I have let go of the plan we had, at least for now.

    To create a new business while still holding on to your other business or work requires a tremendous amount of effort, focus and time. There are alot of sacrifices to make if you want to move on to something different. I want to do something different not only as a back up plan, but because I truly have the passion in my heart to inspire people. What better way to inspire, than to not give up on your dreams in the midst of great challenges.

    I haven’t given up on my dreams. They simply have been revised. One needs to have flexibility in order to survive what is being thrown at you. I had another  real estate deal fall apart last month, when I thought things were getting better. And then…Sparky… So this month, in a few short words have been very heavy.  (more…)

  • Open Letter to My Sister, Maria

    Poinciana Tree
    Poinciana Tree

    Dear Maria, we dreamed two years ago of many things we could do together. With your talent as a mental health therapist for almost 30 years and  my  wanting to inspire others to follow their dreams, much could have been done.  Yesterday my poinciana tree keeled over from its immense weight and now an electric cord is underneath it buried in the beautiful fuschia leaves.

    I called Florida Power and Light yesterday frantic that the electric power cord was going to snap especially since it was raining so hard. Luckily, as of today,it still has not snapped.

    There have been many times that my frazzled mind has felt like that electrical cord on the verge of snapping because of my career as a real estate broker turned upside down in the last two years. I never imagined the immense hardship I would have to face.  Even though I am blessed with the gift of my beautiful son,  family and friends who have supported me every step of the way, I didn’t expect it would be so difficult to get back on my feet again with my work. (more…)

  • Grieving Sparky – The Ultimate Companion

    Last night after I wrote my last post, I stayed up on the computer for a bit, then laid down to watch some Tivo recordings. I watched the interview of Elizabeth Edwards with Oprah. She said that whatever has happened with her husband’s extramarital affairs doesn’t affect her.

    Although I disagree, I give her a lot of credit for taking that stance because she is also dealing with a terminal illness, cancer.  She says the doctors don’t tell her how long she has to live. It could be one year or 10. The point is that she is diagnosed with something terminal. So she is focusing on her family and what she has built to attain that bubble of the “Edward’s family.” And most importantly, she is focused on her small children. That is admirable and it takes a lot of courage to take that stance.

    If I were diagnosed with terminal cancer and at the same time find out that my husband was having an affair AND have small children to attend to, it really would be too much too bear. That is why I support her stance. Personally, I would leave the man. Who cares that they built a 23,000 sq. foot dream home three years ago. What good is a huge house if that house is filled with thoughts of betrayal? I’d rather be alone. (more…)

  • Can You Be Strong Like Hercules?

    Be Strong!
    Be Strong!

    I sent a direct message to a friend on Twitter about a job. When I told her about my real estate business being slow, she replied that if I am still hanging on to this business, then I am probably “Herculean.”  When I think of Hercules, an image of a very strong man comes to mind. Yes, I have been strong and sometimes wonder how many more tests can I overcome. This last one of Sparky passing on nearly broke my heart.

    What has allowed me to remain strong this week was something the vet replied when I asked him a question. I said, “How come I didn’t see it coming?” Meaning, the cancer. He died only a couple of days after I found out. The vet replied that he was a very strong dog. I used to run with Sparky when he was a puppy. It was unbelievable to me how fast he ran. He ran like a horse and for a Labrador was pretty big. He weighed about 110 pounds. This whole week, I have remembered what the vet said and in Sparky’s memory, I have managed to remain strong even though I am still in pain.

    My efforts to tap into the REO business have been tremendous. I do believe I am close to getting the listings. But on the other hand, I could flop and not get “in”. I have made some good connections to getting my foot in the door. I hope all my efforts will pay off. (more…)

  • Happy Mother’s Day…Enjoy Your Life!

    Mother's Day with Cristian
    Mother's Day with Cristian

    Happy Mother’s Day to everyone. It is a day to celebrate all the love that mother’s  give to a child.  So I hope every one’s day is full of joy. I was just listening to my son’s Ipod while working out and discovered this song by Fentura called “Live It”. The words are ” You have one life and heart, you have to just live it, live it.”  My son made me breakfast in bed and now we are going to celebrate with my mother and the rest of my family.

    It has been three days since Sparky died. Because I loved him so much and he took his last breath while I was hugging him, my heart has been at peace.  I have been happy to have had this beautiful pet as part of my life. He enriched my life in ways I never imagined. And now I can remember  those moments we shared. Dogs and pets can’t speak, but through their eyes, they say and give much. Great moments inspire us to live more passionately.

  • Sparky’s Spirit is In My Heart

    Sparky & Me April 14, 2009
    Sparky & Me April 14, 2009

    It is 1:11AM as I sit to write this. I just came back from taking Sparky to the vet where the people from Pet-Heaven will take care of his remains. What remains is the beautiful spirit of Sparky in my heart. Just after I wrote the last post, I laid down to see if he would settle down. I had tried to do that earlier but he got restless. And I got restless. Most nights, if I was on the computer, he would wait until I would lay down to sleep with the lights off.  That is when he would come and sleep next to me on his cushion, right next to my bed. It was a daily ritual which I always thought was sweet.

    As I laid down, I lit a candle with the lights off. He stood in the doorway and looked at me, turned around and went into Cristian’s room. I got the thought that he wanted the lights out. I blew out the candle and he came back to my room,  and right that minute he collapsed  next to me on his cushion. I got up from my bed, gave him a big hug and he took his last breath. This all happened within 15 minutes of my last post.

    Cristian came in and hugged him too as we both cried together. Cristian said it was bittersweet. We were happy to share this moment and that Sparky took his last breath this way. My sister was on her way with my niece to see him for the last time, but when she arrived it was too late.  We all then took him to the vet. As I left, I felt at peace for the way this happened. It was very fast and unexpected. His paw was already healing, but at least he didn’t suffer too much. Time to rest.

    Sparky & Cristian April 24, 2009
    Sparky & Cristian April 24, 2009

     

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